I am happy.

There finally is some closure.

And now i can look at you as just a friend.

I am happy.

There are no regrets.

Having gone through all that "talks" and scoldings.

All just cause of you.

But I'm glad to say,

At least I know I gave my best.

I am happy.

To know maybe you weren't that worth all of that after all.

But still I know for sure,

Love is only told and seen from hind sight.

Nothing ever more could have been given.

And definitely nothing less.

I am happy.

For I did my part.

Tried my best.

And gave my all.

I am happy.

That now I can channel all that for more people around me.

Not forgetting myself.

Self love. That's what I learnt from you.

I am happy.

I had a good year.

Lived it through all ups and downs.

No matter what may happen,

I know there'll be people around who loves and cares.

Maybe even much more than you ever did.

And that sure makes me smile.

Because I feel the love now.

I am happy.

I really am.

I feel no urge that I need you.

Because I realised that all along I was giving.

And now I have no more need of wanting someone to give to.

I have many others to give to,

I have many others to need from.

I am happy.

Why? I wanted to celebrate enjoying my singlehood.

Forget whatever was going on,

Forget whatever happened,

And forget you.

Why? Play these mind fuck games with me?

Who the hell cares?

If someone's arm was being chopped off.

If someone's life was at stake.

If someone was selling tissue for a living.

If someone was rotting.

NO ONE WOULD CARE.

but because it's you.

because of what we used to be.

you know i'd care.

Just cause it aint no just a someone.

Just cause it was you.

Just cause it still is you.

I'm tired.

I want to move on.

So please.

Leave me alone for awhile?

Please.

Because I spend one month trying to forget you.

And some sms comes along out of the blue.

And this sms will keep me fucked up the whole week.

And bring me back to square one.

Exactly right where I was one month ago.

Let me forget.

Because unlike you, I only have myself to pick up my own pieces.

Because unlike you, the darkness that creeps up just before I sleep is the only emptiness I feel.

I want to be cold and nasty.

I want to have no heart or soul.

What a life that would be...

There is one pain I often feel nowadays.

Which you will never know.

Well, let me tell you...

It is caused by the absence of you.

And your heart.

Well, TELL ME.

Tell me when I'm no longer needed

And I SHALL GO.

could i be happy again?

because i know i've just lost happiness.

"Communication is depositing a part of yourself in another person."