So I lived my life in a dreamworld

For the rest of my days

Just you and me walking hand in hand

In a wishful memory

Oh, I guess that's all that it would ever be.

Wish I had a time machine

I could make myself go back

Until the day I was born

And I would live my life again

And rearrange it so that

I'll be yours from now on.

i dunno what i feel anymore.

i'm not sarah lee no more.

"Love is an ugly, terrible business practiced by fools.
It'd trample your heart and leave you bleeding on the floor.
And what does it get you in the end?
Nothing but a few incredible memories that you can't ever shake.
The truth is, there's gonna be other girls out there.
I mean, I hope.
But I'm never ever gonna get another first love.
That one is always gonna be her."

It's always that lousy feeling..

going home to a dark room, finding yourself all alone.

And when you dont drink you cant sleep?

I guess i should have drank more tonight.

Sigh.

I guess I felt responsible to take care of J since she was drunk.

Seeing the way people get totally wasted and do things they have no control over,

It really hurts me.

I really wanted to go all out, have a wild time today.

I wanted to dance like crazy.

I wanted to drink and get hell high.

I wanted to...

Somehow I held back.

Had a drink, and that was it.

The rest of the night it was just green tea..

Because I knew deep down I shouldn't do anything I wouldnt be proud of.

I wanna stay true. Because I still love you.

Maybe it's in wondering how you feel that makes me can't stop thinking about it.

I wanna sleep.

I wanna fall asleep.

I wanna fall into deep sleep.

but all i can do is lie awake and stare into the darkness.

Thoughts, please stay away. Leave me alone. Just for tonight.

I really need rest.

My eyes are getting smaller and smaller each day.

Maybe one day i wouldnt even be able to see no more.

If be in any case,

We can choose not to sleep,

Because the very next day cold hard reality is gonna grab you

and hit you down to the core,

I would never wanna sleep.

It's in every sleep that I dream of you,

It's in every glance i take in the dark, finding myself all alone.

It's in waking up to an empty space beside me.

Knowing you wont be there anymore.

The hardest part is in waking up every morning and remembering what you have been trying so hard to forget last night.

I'm afraid to sleep every night.

To tell you the truth, I haven't slept at all.

~ Better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all. ~

Runawaytrain

It's actions, not words, that matter.

The happiness that we shared, it is never going to last, and if that is so, why still pursue a love that is going to writhe away soon? Why create more happiness, when I know that this ring of glee is going to be part of a memory that you will dearly miss, and I will heartbreakingly forget?

Before I met you, I wondered why all the lyrics in love songs were so exaggerated: Why do lyricists create such mushy and overemotional sentences? Why can’t they just write a good melody without those melodramatic lyrics? That is plain exaggeration.

Before I fell in love with you, I thought romance novels were just so silly: Why would a person cry for another person for hours? How could a person wait for his lover for years? That is plain silliness.

Before we became a couple, I thought romance movies were just so stupid: How could a person love another person so deeply that it became an obsession? How could one sacrifice so much, even to the extent of his own life, for his lover? That is plain stupidity.

When I realized I had fallen so deeply in love with you, I finally understood that songs, novels and movies are just reflections of life, inspired by the writers’ true stories.

Because when we decided to end our relationship, I realized our story mirrors a love song that I once heard, a novel you once read and a movie we once watched.

The pain is not the separation: The pain is the love that we share; the love that was once so blissful is never going to be refreshed again.

The pain is that we are still so much in love, yet we have to let go now. Only someone who had experienced this before will understand.

Isn’t it ironic? It is my profound love for you that brought us together. Now, it is the same profound love that will separate us.

A portion from "To Forget You"

by Low Kay Hwa

What would you do if you fell for an apple.

But when you peeled it,

Only half was the apple but the other an orange.

Would you still love the apple for the half?

But after loosing the half apple that was left,

I've realised having half the apple was so much more worth than nothing at all.

I can't do anything well.

I can't get anything right.

I somehow need a miracle.

To get me back on track.

I cant sleep at night.

I sit around with swollen knuckles,

Thinking how different it could have been.

I need help.

I'm Pathetic.

The stars lean down to kiss you,
And I lie awake and miss you.
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.
'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly,
But I'll miss your arms around me.
I'd send a postcard to you dear,
'Cause I wish you were here.

I'll watch the night turn light blue.
But it's not the same without you,
Because it takes two to whisper quietly,
The silence isn't so bad,
Till I look at my hands and feel sad,
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly.

I'll find repose in new ways,
Though I haven't slept in two days,
'Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone.
But drenched in Vanilla twilight,
I'll sit on the front porch all night,
Waist deep in thought because when I think of you.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.

As many times as I blink I'll think of you... tonight.
I'll think of you tonight.

When violet eyes get brighter,
And heavy wings grow lighter,
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again.
And I'll forget the world that I knew,
But I swear I won't forget you,
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past,
I'd whisper in your ear,
Oh darling I wish you were here.

the only thing i ask for you is to be happy.

I love you then. now. and always.
I'm sorry if i've stressed you out.
But all the best to you. Stay happy.

Whatever happened to the girl I fell in love with?

Maybe it's time to say goodbye. Time to say it's enough.

What do you think?

I Am Confused.

Would you ask "are you okay?" or "what's wrong?"

Do you feel it too? Or is it just coming from me?

it's difficult to bring it up.

It somehow feels so distant. What's happening?

Vacillating

I don't know. It somehow feels different.

Funny feelings, funny feelings,

That you don't love me anymore.

Since everybody's changing

And I don't know why.

But everybody's changing

And I don't feel the same.

Cause everybody's changing

And I don't feel right.

But everybody's changing

And I don't feel the same.

But everybody's changing

And I don't feel the same.

For whatever might have been

And all that it never was

Whatever I couldn't see

And all that I didn't want.

There was a method to my madness girl

That wasn't clear to me

Until the day I saw your face

When I saw everything.

Whenever you want it

Whenever you need it

Whatever you feel like,

It's gon' be like

You better believe it.

I'd like to make myself believe

That planet earth turns slowly

It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep

'Cause everything is never as it seems

When I fall asleep.

Leave my door open just a crack.

Please take me away from here.

'Cause I feel like such an insomniac.

Please take me away from here.

Why do I tire of counting sheep.

Please take me away from here.

When I'm far too tired to fall asleep.

I never make a promise

I don't intend to keep

So when I say forever

Forever's what I mean

Well I am no casanova

But I swear this much is true.

I'll be holding nothing back

When it comes to you.

You dream of love that's everlasting

Well baby open up your eyes.

I can love you like that

I would make you my world

Move heaven and earth if you were my girl.

I would give you my heart

Be all that you need

Show you you're everything that's precious to me

If you give me a chance, I can love you like that.