Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Libretto In Stanzas Or Recognised Forms

Love wandered inside,
Stronger than you,
Stronger than I.

And now that it's begun,
We cannot turn back.
We can only turn into one.

I won't ever be too far away to feel you,
And I won't hesitate at all,
Whenever you call.
And I'll always remember,
That part of you, so tender.
I'll be the one to catch your fall,
Whenever you call.

And I'm truly inspired,
Finding my soul there in your eyes.
And you have opened my heart,
And lifted me inside
By showing me yourself undisguised.

And I will breathe for you each day,
Comfort you through all the pain,
Gently kiss your fears away.

You can turn to me and cry,
Always understand that I give you all I have inside.

Sometimes people put up walls.
Not to keep people out,
But to see who cares enough to knock them down.

Vigilance Against The Vigilantes

I'm spiraling into my doom
I'm feeling half alice but I know one day
You and I will be free,
To live and die by our own rules,
Free...
Despite the fact that men are fools.



So you see, this world doesn't matter to me
I'll give up all I have just to breathe
The same air as you till the day that I die
I can't take my eyes off of you.



Today.
3 phone calls + smses within less than 4 hrs.
That's how many updates do you need?
Oh come on.
you say i'm a big girl now, cant control me anymore.
Fuck off. Since you cant, stop trying to.
Isn't calling and smsing non stop trying to control me?
ARGH.
Your son isn't even home on the eve of your birthday
and at 10pm you're calling me asking me to go home?
THANKS.
Yes. keep comparing.
I know.
Compare the degree against the diploma.
Compare the A grades against the Cs.
Compare the hardworking against the one working when you're asleep.
Compare the thrifty against the extravagant spender.
Compare the OH MY GOOD BOY against the rude ass piece of shit.
Compare the sensible go out and work fella against the insensible lazy bum.
Compare the asslicker against the one who doesnt give a fuck.
COMPARE. COMPARE. COMPARE.

I haven't heard you say...
O! look! she's creative against the NERD ASS BOOKWORM engineer.
O! look! she's generous against the PENNY PINCHING guy.
O! look! she's home against the fella who comes home only ONCE EVERY 3 DAYS.
O! look! she's got a mind of her own against the I HAVE TO ASK MY GF wonderful guy.


WHAT TIME YOU COMING BACK?
at least I come home. where is he?
WHY DO YOU ALWAYS HAVE TO BE SO RUDE?
have you heard yourself?
WHY MUST YOU ALWAYS SPEND MONEY UNNECESSARILY?
it may be unnecessary to you. have you thought about to me?
WHERE ARE YOU GOING?
have I ever questioned you?
WHY MUST YOU ALWAYS GO OUT SO LATE?
aren't you also always coming back after midnight?

HAVE YOU EVER LOOKED AT YOURSELF BEFORE QUESTIONING ME??

yes. you're old with lotsa experience.
TIMES HAVE CHANGED PEOPLE!
UPDATE YOURSELF PLEASE.
antiques.
get a life out there!
see the world NOW.
o yes. you don't believe in the WORLD.
ha!
I AM WHO YOU'VE MADE ME BECOME.
o right. I forgot.
you don't know me...
Wells, don't bother cause you never will.

Sunday, June 28, 2009

Scoldings In A Vehement Fashion

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?



Why?
I know it's wrong. but it feels so right.

I feel like a hypocrite. I can't call myself a christian anymore.
I can't bring myself to do it.
But on the other hand, I love my Baby so.

I never felt this guilty before.
But somehow I've come to a point where I somewhat don't care anymore.
All I know is that I will die without my Baby.

It's not as if I am an animal that follows its instinct.
I have feelings too. I have my own thoughts too.
Isn't it why we were given free will?
Why let us choose when there is only ONE choice to be made?

I lay in bed last night trying to imagine what it'd be like if ever my Baby left me.
I couldn't do it.
I think I'd seriously die.
Go contract some stupid flu shit or die of some mysterious cardiac arrest.
No shit man. I'll seriously die.


I don't know why this whole thing is affecting me so much.
But I cant help but think of it.
It hurts. But at least it's a minimal part of me.
The other parts, HELL YEAH BABY!!


=D


Argh damn. Why did Michael have to go?
I miss you you sexy Jackson!
Aw!
Dad was just saying if he were to come to Singapore again
we'll go see him.
DAMN.
I was sooo hoping.
yes. Hope more.
He's dead now.
Love you my sexy 50 year old man.

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Silent Night, Unholy Night

Argh. It's 4am and I'm still awake.
I'm super awake. I'm still super awake.
HELP!

I was playing FB games just now.
And a stupid mozzie had to show itself.
It flew into the light from the lappy and landed on my hand.
How to let it go?
So I turned on the lights and finally smashed it.

I miss my Baby.
Argh. =(















okay. Anyways, I'm super liking Ah Mei's 解脫
dunno why also. Keep repeating it on youtube.

Sigh.
I think I should try and sleep.
It's 8 mins to 5am. GOSH.



Wednesday, June 24, 2009

ARGH. DAMN YO.

argh man... i sooo wanna kick myself.
why? damn it.
I CANT SEE MY BABY TODAY!
why didnt i wake up earlier today and head down and have lunch with Baby today.
ARGH.
Mom just told me a while ago that we're having dinner with Grandma.
it's her birthday today.
I wanna have dinner with Mama... but my baby!
I wanna see my baby too...
Argh. bad timing.

SORRY BABY.
poor thing... ok..
at least there's lxr. thanks man.

Holey Smokerooos

WoW! I finally started my own blog!

How awesome right?

Now my baby would have one extra blog to read to entertain her at work.

=D whoopiedoowah!

“I never know what the future brings

But I know you’re here with me now.

We’ll make it through and I hope

You are the one I share my life with.”

It’s the holidays now.. like finally after such a LONG while…

O wells. it’s only 2 weeks though. and 1 hath already passed.

DAMNED.

Well, I sure spent the first 2 days of the last week of the hols well enough!

=D

Monday! I went to school damn bloody early in the morning… argh.

But my sweet baby called me to wake me in the early morn.=)

hahah! although I just practically went back to sleep after she hung up.

I eventually got up though and got ready, left for school.

FINALLY the Hereafter could be used and the server was running.

stupid fire… wahlau. SWAY ASS… well that’s another story.

ANYWAYS. I super after a long way EVENTUALLY finished my whole project 3.

OH THANK GOD!

although the crits weren’t really tt great… =( at least I tried.

I got complimented on the storyline though… =) kudos to that…

and alfie had to come in with his arms akimbo and said bitchyly,”abit draggy hor…”

haha! and he laughed evilly shortly after. argh.

O wells, at least Siew Cheng was like super encouraging all the way. LOVES!

super to the max wonderful and supportive that lady. =D

after watching everyone’s we headed down to the canteen…

ate MUSLIM RICE! super to the maxxxxxxxx… BESTEST FOOD!

saw yuan ming playing sudoku.. den my brain itchy.. so went to help her.

unknowingly that andrea lim was having a challenge with her… haha!

anyways… ym gave up and handed me the whole thing. and obviously i completed it.

I did one on my own after that… and Mallory brain itchy also.

Apparently she has never completed one on her own. AH WELLS.

So I helped her… and after we successfully completed 3 puzzles,

Andrea was still on the one she was doing when she challenged Yuan. WTH.

and she was rather proud of it. HAHA! hilarious!

and den I WAS LATE. argh. DAMN SUDOKU ALWAYS EAT MY TIME.

Sorry BABY!

WE WENT TO WATCH ghost of girlfriend’s past.

super nonsense storyline… but okay la…

for the sake of Matthew McConaughey and of course the hottie.. JENNIFER GARNER!!

hahaha! although in all the movies her face like always the same… SHE’S STILL DAMN HOT!

haha! after the movie… HELL LONG BUS RIDE!

the bus uncle was HILARIOUS!

he was PUZZLED… why we taking his bus when his route to Eunos is the longest.

HAHA! but anyways…

I was happy that it’s times like that I can actually spend precious time with my baby.

I was like to the max on high cause I was blabbering gibberish. hahah!

Hilarious. Myself. ARGH. (shakes head)

Baby was like laughing to the max max until she couldn’t walk properly.

HOHOHO! (merry christmas!)

I love it when Baby laughs so heartily.. =D

simple happiness.

“Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me.”

TUESDAY! Was supposed to wake up in the morning to go gym and work everything off…

but obviously… TOO LAZY LA! (tsk tsk tsk…)

Think Mom was quite disappointed. But she gave up even attempting waking me up.

SORRY!

well.. Baby called me in the morn.. haha! and OBVIOUSLY AGAIN… I went right back to sleep.

[O SLEEP... GLORIOUS SLEEP... IT'S THE BEST ACTIVITY WHEN YOU'RE ALONE. =D]

Favouritedous hobby.

Woke up at 11.28am… WOW! hahaha!

Showered and left house. MET BABY FOR LUNCH!

=D bestest. drank TEH-PENG. and the bloody milk.

ARGH. LEAVE ME ALONE! LEAVE MY STOMACH NORMAL!

whole day my stomach felt weird. STUPID MILK. (sorry Baby)

Anyways.. after lunch went to Eunos platform…

I WAS EARLY!

Met Pearly and Rachel. Kiddos.

hahah! Bloody Hell. Was bad enough I had to wait since I was EARLY.

I reached at 1pm. They arrived at 1.25pm. whooo! power kias!

Stood at the damn platform. Deciding what to do with our afternoon.

HOHO. called NadiaKangSuLing… WOW!

She was HOME! hohohohohoho! so decided to meet her at TAMPINES (again)

after like a super long discussion where to meet. argh.

we walked around… den went to STARBUCKS!

drank up and finally Nadia reached and we went to Cartel and watched her eat.

den went to the ARCADE lorh horrr…. Nadia apparently associates KIDS to the arcade.

WHAT!?!?

argh. We stood and watched Dan play the chinese drums thingy… HILARIOUS!

hahaha!

den after Dan and Nadia left we continued walking around AIMLESSLY.

yes. AIMLESSLY.

o… I saw an Ashworth Polo that was quite nice. tried it on but it was too big.

Ashworth has super weird sizing. the men’s extra small is TOO BIG.

the women’s extra large is fitting. and the women’s collection is sooooooo limited!

argh. pek chek.

So couldn’t buy.

Save money la.

Den we walked until it was 6pm and we left for the airport!

Met everyone at BK. and we walked over to the clubhouse.

whooo!

super large group. had to go down a few times to bring everyone to the location.

ordered food into the K room and we started singing!

came in only dunno who put the SHAN HU HAI there..

den dun wanna sing. so when Nadine and I walked in…

Nadine sang the char bor part. and obviously I sang the male part…

Everyone like super on high. HO! (wait till we bring in the booze man!)

AMANDA SINGS SUPER CUTELY!!!

Every song we sang was practically an anthem. Everyone shouted/sang aloud!

And we ended with super HIGH song! “Dancing Queen”,”THANK YOU FOR THE MUSIC”

everyone stood up and DANCED!

haha! super cha cham bo and ah go go lorh!

HILARIOUS!

waiting for the video from Nadia. UBER!

after K nobody felt like leaving. but the damn place was waiting for us to leave to close up.

So we went for supper! YA KUN people!!!

super… took LOTSA photos… all nonsense de la!

haha!

“HAO LONG IS A CHINA MAN.”/”HOW LONG IS A CHINA MAN.” (thanks Melody)

yeah. and after, we left cause it was getting late and the kiddos had to catch the last train.

=D

Thanks to ScubaNut who sent me back!

Let’s see what Wednesday brings! tata!

Love you Baby!