Saturday, November 21, 2009

It's always that lousy feeling..
going home to a dark room, finding yourself all alone.
And when you dont drink you cant sleep?
I guess i should have drank more tonight.
Sigh.
I guess I felt responsible to take care of J since she was drunk.
Seeing the way people get totally wasted and do things they have no control over,
It really hurts me.
I really wanted to go all out, have a wild time today.
I wanted to dance like crazy.
I wanted to drink and get hell high.
I wanted to...
Somehow I held back.
Had a drink, and that was it.
The rest of the night it was just green tea..
Because I knew deep down I shouldn't do anything I wouldnt be proud of.
I wanna stay true. Because I still love you.

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