Scoldings In A Vehement Fashion

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

Why?

I know it's wrong. but it feels so right.

I feel like a hypocrite. I can't call myself a christian anymore.

I can't bring myself to do it.

But on the other hand, I love my Baby so.

I never felt this guilty before.

But somehow I've come to a point where I somewhat don't care anymore.

All I know is that I will die without my Baby.

It's not as if I am an animal that follows its instinct.

I have feelings too. I have my own thoughts too.

Isn't it why we were given free will?

Why let us choose when there is only ONE choice to be made?

I lay in bed last night trying to imagine what it'd be like if ever my Baby left me.

I couldn't do it.

I think I'd seriously die.

Go contract some stupid flu shit or die of some mysterious cardiac arrest.

No shit man. I'll seriously die.

I don't know why this whole thing is affecting me so much.

But I cant help but think of it.

It hurts. But at least it's a minimal part of me.

The other parts, HELL YEAH BABY!!

=D

Argh damn. Why did Michael have to go?

I miss you you sexy Jackson!

Aw!

Dad was just saying if he were to come to Singapore again

we'll go see him.

DAMN.

I was sooo hoping.

yes. Hope more.

He's dead now.

Love you my sexy 50 year old man.