The Misdemeanants

Reminiscence

2010-03-30T01:28:00.002+08:00

Do you remember?
You came back sick.
Really sick.
All you did was sleep the whole day.
I went over.
You weren't dressed.
Unlocked the door for me.
And went back upstairs to sleep.
I picked a towel.
Plonked it in water.
And we fought.
Because you refused to have it on you.
We bargained. In your sleep.
And you were too tired to say no more.
I won. I put the towel on you.
I sat alone. Watching as you slept.
I climbed into bed with you.
Hugged you as you slept.
I saw the true beauty I fell for.
It was the peace you displayed, through the sick frown you had.
I saw pure beauty.
And I was happy I kissed beauty.

It was time for medication.
But you had to eat first.
I brought your food upstairs.
Fed you mouthful by mouthful.
As you lay weak and tired.
My chopstick skills failed me.
But it was still all good.
I ate the minimal.
Cause I felt full.
Full from the inside.
Not by tangible things.
But by the most wonderful feeling ever.
Love.

It was this same feeling that we yearned.
That we truly possessed. Together.

I still dream about the girl I fell in love with.
Where'd she go?
I miss you.
Please come back soon.
Thanks.

Love,
My yearning heart.

Flummoxed.

2010-03-18T00:49:00.003+08:00

You know... i've been seriously thinking about what i really want...
Like I've not stepped out of the house since.. sunday's dinner.
And I thought about.. what i want.. in a r/s, what i want as a career,
what i really wanna do?

But I've finally come to terms with my answer.

I REALLY DON'T KNOW!

I used to be so.. I know what's going on.. I know what i want.
I used to be so.. Focused? I used to be so... well planned.
But you've totally thrown me off...
You made me realised that hey, i'm actually quite unfocused, unplanned,
and totally unknowing about everything.

I'm not saying it's a bad thing, I'm not saying it's good either.
Just that now I just feel lost?
Maybe it's natural to feel that way.
I wanna talk about it and yet not talk about it.
Is that normal?
I've not felt normal in a long time.
Maybe i still like you that way.
I don't know. I seriously don't know.

Maybe i should stop trying to be abnormal.
cause it's like i'm already am. like long ago.
Dad said to me a few weeks back.
why cant you be normal like everyone else.
you know your dad has high blood..
you wanna give me a heart attack is it?
And that really made me think.
Am i really that abnormal?
But i feel totally normal you know...
It's confusing.

You know how that feeling of
falling head over heals or that feeling of
your heart racing when you see just this one person?
I've not felt that since you.
But i've been getting this really small ones when a few people are around.
What does that mean?

I feel like going out and running all out. And yet I don't feel like gg out at all.
Tell me what to do.
I need someone to tell me what's going on.

You know how you can totally not give a damn about something,
and yet just wanna care about everything?
i'm totally baffled at how confused and lost I really am.
It's like I'm shocked. Like not negatively.. nor positively.
Just neutral. It's so neutral that i dont have any stand on how i feel.

Has anyone felt that way before?
it's kinda freaking me out.
like.. oh my gosh i'm bewildered?

I have so many questions to ask.
And yet I don't wanna sit down and hear anything,
I wanna have the answers but yet i dont really care?

I need to talk to someone maybe.
Maybe i'm going a lil nuts?
Maybe i'm really crazy?
but then again i feel sane.

it's like a major flood of thoughts just hit my head or something.
it's like you lost control over something you've held composed for so long.
19 long years baby. 19 long years.
And it snapped.
the leash broke. melted?
I don't know. it's going haywire.
Everything!
it's like.. sitting in a jungle. huge major thick plumage.
you know you're lost but you're just sitting there.
cause maybe you know you're lost but you're not getting out anyways.
So why try?
maybe you don't wanna get out in the first place.
cause so many things are waiting for you once you get back on track.
it's like... swimming in the middle of the deep blue sea.
you don't know which way's the shore which way's the horizon.
well, tell you what, both sides have shores. just which one's nearer?
ha. bet you didnt think of that huh. haha.
well.. then why do you still swim?

it's like you know how you don't know anymore?
but still you wanna search for it?
but you don't even know what it is.
then? are you gonna search all your life?
but what if the if doesnt come to you even after you die?
then why search for it in the first place?

wait. i dont even know what i'm talking about.
So why talk?
I feel like i'm crazy.
haha.
yes. maybe i just need some help.

Help me? Anyone?

Times Like That.

2010-02-01T02:58:00.003+08:00

I'd always think of sms-ing you at 11:12.
Hoping it was me you wished for earlier at 11:11.

You've got me thinking about you constantly.

To You. From Me.

2010-01-26T02:04:00.001+08:00

Be soft. Do not let the world make you hard.
Do not let the pain make you hate.
Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness.
Take pride that even though the rest of the world may disagree,
You still believe it to be a beautiful place.

I <3 You.

I Need Sleep.

2010-01-24T01:21:00.002+08:00

O no. Down with flu.

And I still have to do my video editing trailer.

TSK.

Well at least thank goodness my FYP's editing is done.

Only left with background music and my documentation.

Great stuff. And I'm happy on how it's looking right now.

I think Fidelia did a great job on her acting.

Nailed it. Not bad la for first timer.

Dung. Why did I choose to do kinetic typography for my trailer?

Now I have soooo much to do.

I spent the whole of friday doing only my end promo tagline.

Wahlau. I have to chiong before tmr morning.

Cause after church Mong and Aida are coming over to use my com.

And I reckon I would be needing some sleep.

Monday I have FYP Interim 2.

So I have to finish my trailer before my presentation.

If not no time to do.

O wells. I shall start work now. Ta.

PS. You look really beautiful when you sleep.

Can I hold you and watch you till I fall asleep too?

Of Serious Sardonicism

2010-01-14T00:53:00.002+08:00

OMG. I'm super laughing it off.

Thanks for the de-stress.

Really apt.

You know how sometimes when people keep getting the attention,

all the care and all the love they need?

And suddenly it hits them that they've lost all of that?

Well maybe not all.. but a large extend of it is mostly gone?

Yeah. That's the time where they feel it the most.

FEEL. like... wow. they are actually capable of that.

I know right.

Hide. Go on.

Hide all you want.

Because ultimately you yourself would be the ONLY one who

feels it biting you up inside.

Enjoy eating yourself up from the inside.

Love,

Sarah.

I'm Crazy For You

2010-01-13T01:37:00.003+08:00

I've been thinking.

Alot.

Even amongst all my busy FYP stuff

and vid editing,

I've been thinking.

About all the people coming to me...

But ultimately, I want someone who is there,

Not throwing herself at you...

Though bodies to have,

I'd rather emotions.

Ups or downs, I wanna have them.

Well, preferably the ups but anyways it all comes together.

She rolls the window down
And she
Talks over the sound
Of the cars that pass us by
And I don't know why
But she's changed my mind

Would you look at her
She looks at me
She's got me thinking about her constantly
But she don't know how I feel
And as she carries on without a doubt
I wonder if she's figured out
I'm crazy for this girl
Yeah, I'm crazy for this girl

She was the one to hold me
The night
The sky fell down
And what was I thinking when
The world didn't end
Why didn't I know what I know now

Would you look at her
She looks at me
She's got me thinking about her constantly
But she don't know how I feel
As she carries on without a doubt
I wonder if she'll figure out
I'm crazy for this girl
I'm crazy for this girl

Right now
Face to face
All my fears
Pushed aside
And right now
I'm ready to spend the rest of my life
With you

Would you look at her
She looks at me
She's got me thinking about her constantly
But she don't know how I feel
AS she carries on without a doubt
I wonder if she's figured out
I'm crazy for this girl
I'm crazy for this girl

Would you look at her
She looks at me
She's got me thinking about her constantly
But she don't know how I feel
And as she carries on without a doubt
I wonder if she's figured out
I'm crazy for this girl
I'm crazy for this girl

I know you're probably worried about so many things.

Well, be sure I'm always here for you.

I can't say I love you now,

But I can assure you you're constantly on my mind.

It's not that I try, but it just somehow is so.

I'll be here if you wanna talk.

Because behind that front is a beautiful girl that I want to get to know.

I would like to you to be a part of me,

every part of me.

You're not my rebound.

Of this I am sure.

2009-12-24T15:41:00.002+08:00

I am happy.

There finally is some closure.

And now i can look at you as just a friend.

I am happy.

There are no regrets.

Having gone through all that "talks" and scoldings.

All just cause of you.

But I'm glad to say,

At least I know I gave my best.

I am happy.

To know maybe you weren't that worth all of that after all.

But still I know for sure,

Love is only told and seen from hind sight.

Nothing ever more could have been given.

And definitely nothing less.

I am happy.

For I did my part.

Tried my best.

And gave my all.

I am happy.

That now I can channel all that for more people around me.

Not forgetting myself.

Self love. That's what I learnt from you.

I am happy.

I had a good year.

Lived it through all ups and downs.

No matter what may happen,

I know there'll be people around who loves and cares.

Maybe even much more than you ever did.

And that sure makes me smile.

Because I feel the love now.

I am happy.

I really am.

I feel no urge that I need you.

Because I realised that all along I was giving.

And now I have no more need of wanting someone to give to.

I have many others to give to,

I have many others to need from.

I am happy.

2009-12-16T02:26:00.002+08:00

Why? I wanted to celebrate enjoying my singlehood.

Forget whatever was going on,

Forget whatever happened,

And forget you.

Why? Play these mind fuck games with me?

Who the hell cares?

If someone's arm was being chopped off.

If someone's life was at stake.

If someone was selling tissue for a living.

If someone was rotting.

NO ONE WOULD CARE.

but because it's you.

because of what we used to be.

you know i'd care.

Just cause it aint no just a someone.

Just cause it was you.

Just cause it still is you.

I'm tired.

I want to move on.

So please.

Leave me alone for awhile?

Please.

Because I spend one month trying to forget you.

And some sms comes along out of the blue.

And this sms will keep me fucked up the whole week.

And bring me back to square one.

Exactly right where I was one month ago.

Let me forget.

Because unlike you, I only have myself to pick up my own pieces.

Because unlike you, the darkness that creeps up just before I sleep is the only emptiness I feel.

2009-12-02T19:17:00.003+08:00

I want to be cold and nasty.

I want to have no heart or soul.

What a life that would be...

There is one pain I often feel nowadays.

Which you will never know.

Well, let me tell you...

It is caused by the absence of you.

And your heart.

Well, TELL ME.

Tell me when I'm no longer needed

And I SHALL GO.

2009-12-02T11:36:00.003+08:00

could i be happy again?

because i know i've just lost happiness.

2009-12-01T01:56:00.002+08:00

"Communication is depositing a part of yourself in another person."

2009-11-30T00:07:00.002+08:00

So I lived my life in a dreamworld

For the rest of my days

Just you and me walking hand in hand

In a wishful memory

Oh, I guess that's all that it would ever be.

Wish I had a time machine

I could make myself go back

Until the day I was born

And I would live my life again

And rearrange it so that

I'll be yours from now on.

2009-11-28T01:07:00.000+08:00

i dunno what i feel anymore.

i'm not sarah lee no more.

2009-11-22T18:49:00.002+08:00

"Love is an ugly, terrible business practiced by fools.
It'd trample your heart and leave you bleeding on the floor.
And what does it get you in the end?
Nothing but a few incredible memories that you can't ever shake.
The truth is, there's gonna be other girls out there.
I mean, I hope.
But I'm never ever gonna get another first love.
That one is always gonna be her."

2009-11-21T02:36:00.002+08:00

It's always that lousy feeling..

going home to a dark room, finding yourself all alone.

And when you dont drink you cant sleep?

I guess i should have drank more tonight.

Sigh.

I guess I felt responsible to take care of J since she was drunk.

Seeing the way people get totally wasted and do things they have no control over,

It really hurts me.

I really wanted to go all out, have a wild time today.

I wanted to dance like crazy.

I wanted to drink and get hell high.

I wanted to...

Somehow I held back.

Had a drink, and that was it.

The rest of the night it was just green tea..

Because I knew deep down I shouldn't do anything I wouldnt be proud of.

I wanna stay true. Because I still love you.

2009-11-18T19:22:00.002+08:00

Maybe it's in wondering how you feel that makes me can't stop thinking about it.

2009-11-17T00:33:00.003+08:00

I wanna sleep.

I wanna fall asleep.

I wanna fall into deep sleep.

but all i can do is lie awake and stare into the darkness.

Thoughts, please stay away. Leave me alone. Just for tonight.

I really need rest.

My eyes are getting smaller and smaller each day.

Maybe one day i wouldnt even be able to see no more.

2009-11-16T01:26:00.003+08:00

If be in any case,

We can choose not to sleep,

Because the very next day cold hard reality is gonna grab you

and hit you down to the core,

I would never wanna sleep.

It's in every sleep that I dream of you,

It's in every glance i take in the dark, finding myself all alone.

It's in waking up to an empty space beside me.

Knowing you wont be there anymore.

The hardest part is in waking up every morning and remembering what you have been trying so hard to forget last night.

I'm afraid to sleep every night.

To tell you the truth, I haven't slept at all.

2009-11-15T21:22:00.002+08:00

~ Better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all. ~

Runawaytrain

2009-11-15T16:49:00.003+08:00

2009-11-15T02:47:00.000+08:00

It's actions, not words, that matter.

2009-11-14T22:14:00.002+08:00

The happiness that we shared, it is never going to last, and if that is so, why still pursue a love that is going to writhe away soon? Why create more happiness, when I know that this ring of glee is going to be part of a memory that you will dearly miss, and I will heartbreakingly forget?

Before I met you, I wondered why all the lyrics in love songs were so exaggerated: Why do lyricists create such mushy and overemotional sentences? Why can’t they just write a good melody without those melodramatic lyrics? That is plain exaggeration.

Before I fell in love with you, I thought romance novels were just so silly: Why would a person cry for another person for hours? How could a person wait for his lover for years? That is plain silliness.

Before we became a couple, I thought romance movies were just so stupid: How could a person love another person so deeply that it became an obsession? How could one sacrifice so much, even to the extent of his own life, for his lover? That is plain stupidity.

When I realized I had fallen so deeply in love with you, I finally understood that songs, novels and movies are just reflections of life, inspired by the writers’ true stories.

Because when we decided to end our relationship, I realized our story mirrors a love song that I once heard, a novel you once read and a movie we once watched.

The pain is not the separation: The pain is the love that we share; the love that was once so blissful is never going to be refreshed again.

The pain is that we are still so much in love, yet we have to let go now. Only someone who had experienced this before will understand.

Isn’t it ironic? It is my profound love for you that brought us together. Now, it is the same profound love that will separate us.

A portion from "To Forget You"

by Low Kay Hwa

2009-11-14T14:50:00.002+08:00

What would you do if you fell for an apple.

But when you peeled it,

Only half was the apple but the other an orange.

Would you still love the apple for the half?

But after loosing the half apple that was left,

I've realised having half the apple was so much more worth than nothing at all.

I can't do anything well.

I can't get anything right.

I somehow need a miracle.

To get me back on track.

I cant sleep at night.

I sit around with swollen knuckles,

Thinking how different it could have been.

I need help.

I'm Pathetic.

2009-11-13T21:24:00.000+08:00

The stars lean down to kiss you,
And I lie awake and miss you.
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.
'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly,
But I'll miss your arms around me.
I'd send a postcard to you dear,
'Cause I wish you were here.

I'll watch the night turn light blue.
But it's not the same without you,
Because it takes two to whisper quietly,
The silence isn't so bad,
Till I look at my hands and feel sad,
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly.

I'll find repose in new ways,
Though I haven't slept in two days,
'Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone.
But drenched in Vanilla twilight,
I'll sit on the front porch all night,
Waist deep in thought because when I think of you.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.

As many times as I blink I'll think of you... tonight.
I'll think of you tonight.

When violet eyes get brighter,
And heavy wings grow lighter,
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again.
And I'll forget the world that I knew,
But I swear I won't forget you,
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past,
I'd whisper in your ear,
Oh darling I wish you were here.

2009-11-13T16:50:00.001+08:00

the only thing i ask for you is to be happy.

2009-11-13T15:44:00.001+08:00

I love you then. now. and always.
I'm sorry if i've stressed you out.
But all the best to you. Stay happy.

2009-11-12T17:20:00.001+08:00

Whatever happened to the girl I fell in love with?

Maybe it's time to say goodbye. Time to say it's enough.

What do you think?

I Am Confused.

2009-11-10T23:40:00.002+08:00

Would you ask "are you okay?" or "what's wrong?"

Do you feel it too? Or is it just coming from me?

it's difficult to bring it up.

It somehow feels so distant. What's happening?

Vacillating

2009-11-10T00:13:00.002+08:00

I don't know. It somehow feels different.

Funny feelings, funny feelings,

That you don't love me anymore.

Since everybody's changing

And I don't know why.

But everybody's changing

And I don't feel the same.

Cause everybody's changing

And I don't feel right.

But everybody's changing

And I don't feel the same.

But everybody's changing

And I don't feel the same.

For whatever might have been

And all that it never was

Whatever I couldn't see

And all that I didn't want.

There was a method to my madness girl

That wasn't clear to me

Until the day I saw your face

When I saw everything.

Whenever you want it

Whenever you need it

Whatever you feel like,

It's gon' be like

You better believe it.

I'd like to make myself believe

That planet earth turns slowly

It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep

'Cause everything is never as it seems

When I fall asleep.

Leave my door open just a crack.

Please take me away from here.

'Cause I feel like such an insomniac.

Please take me away from here.

Why do I tire of counting sheep.

Please take me away from here.

When I'm far too tired to fall asleep.

I never make a promise

I don't intend to keep

So when I say forever

Forever's what I mean

Well I am no casanova

But I swear this much is true.

I'll be holding nothing back

When it comes to you.

You dream of love that's everlasting

Well baby open up your eyes.

I can love you like that

I would make you my world

Move heaven and earth if you were my girl.

I would give you my heart

Be all that you need

Show you you're everything that's precious to me

If you give me a chance, I can love you like that.

2009-10-17T21:12:00.001+08:00

你最近不說話怎麼了為什麼
是不是有什麼事讓妳不快樂
聽說你最近很孤單有點亂有點慌
可是我卻不能夠在你的身旁

For I Know... I'm Yours

2009-10-09T11:58:00.001+08:00

You touch these tired eyes of mine
And map my face out line by line
And somehow growing old feels fine
I listen close for I'm not smart
You wrap you thoughts in works of art
And they're hanging on the walls of my heart
I may not have the softest touch
I may not say the words as such
And though I may not look like much
I'm yours
And though my edges may be rough
And never feel I'm quite enough
It may not seem like very much
But I'm yours
You heeled these scars over time
Embraced my soul You loved my mind
You're the only angel in my life
The day news came my best friend died
My knees went week and you saw me cry
Say I'm still the soldier in your eyes
I may not have the softest touch
I may not say the words as such
And though I may not look like much
I'm yours
And though my edges may be rough
And never feel I'm quite enough
It may not seem like very much
But I'm yours
I may not have the softest touch
I may not say the words as such
I know I don't fit in that much
But I'm yours

I Don't Need Anniversaries Cause Everyday Should Be Special.

2009-09-21T20:22:00.004+08:00

I love you Baby. =D

Enjoyed just lying next to you under the scorching sun.

We should do it more often.

World! Be jealous for these two girls are damn in love!

Happy?

2009-09-11T14:54:00.001+08:00

so what if it hurts me
so what if i break down
so what if this world just throws me off the edge
my feet run out of ground
i gotta find my place
i wanna hear my sound
dont care about all the pain infront of me
cause im just tryna be happy
just wanna be happy

Assiduously Blasé

2009-09-07T11:05:00.002+08:00

Wow! i'm blogging again! haha!

so bored you know...
been working for the past month and a half.

tiring.
working is really tiring.

bleagh.

People! come entertain me during my lunch hour!

I havent blogged in so long.
And i dunno what to blog about.
Everything seems mundane.
I NEED SOME EXCITEMENT MAN!
it's the monday blues.

Non Compos Mentis

2009-08-02T21:32:00.004+08:00

Is there something wrong with me?
My hands keep shaking.
My nose keeps bleeding.
My vision is blurring.
Someone please save me.

With a blurring vision and trembling hands,
I'm crying out I need you.

I need you more than ever.
I need you more than I ever needed anyone.

Would You Be There?

2009-08-01T17:17:00.000+08:00

If I were blue, would you be there for me,
And whisper in my ears that's ok.
Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight,
And say you love me one more time.

If I feel good, would you slow dance with me,
And touch my lips with tender loving care,
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
And never look back..

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there..

If I am away, would you still think of me,
And wished that you could hold me now.
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
All the way ...

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there to save my soul tonight,
Would you swear that your love is always true,
Would you say that you always be there,
To kiss my pain away,

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there to save my soul tonight,
Would you swear that your love is always true,
Would you say that you always be there,
To kiss my pain away,

Would you be there ..... for me ...

In Vociferation

2009-07-28T09:21:00.002+08:00

OMG...

My Baby's sick and I can't go take care of her.

WTH...

So lousy me...

sigh.

Of Great Contrition

2009-07-27T21:35:00.000+08:00

I'll be the one to make you smile
Whenever your feeling down
And when your feeling lonely look to your side I'll be around
I found love
New meaning to love
Ever since the day I met you
You're the only one who cares for me
The only one who guides me through

Baby girl whenever I'm with chu its like I have a lucky charm
Come on over here girl let me take you into my arms
Cuz you know this baby girl I wont ever do you harm
Cuz you know I'm by your side everyday and all night
Whenever you'll have a fright in my arms that's where you'll hide
I'll be there for you if you need a shed of cry
I'll call you every night
Ever time that chu feel lonely
The only things in life is you girl and my homies
Don't worry baby girl come to me if you feel scared
I know it from the past I'm the only one who cared
We'll live with our life happily and even blessed
Every corner every way I'll try to sneak a kiss, yo

I'll be the one to make you smile
Whenever your feeling down
And when your feeling lonely
look to your side I'll be around
I found love
New meaning to love
Ever since the day I meet you
You're the only one who cares for me
The only one who guides me through
your all I ever wanted
all I ever asked for
even more
After each day its seems we grow more closer then before
here we are the best of two lovers
never want us to be over
Heaven made us for each other
You just don't know how much you mean to me
There's only you in my heart
Till the end
Since the start
you and I can never be torn apart
We'll last for eternity
This love we have so true
No one else compares to you
No one can take your place
your place in my heart and soul
you play the perfect role to make my heart a whole
no words can ever become by to add up to how I feel inside…baby I love you
I'll be the one to make you smile
whenever you feeling down
And when your feeling lonely I look to your side I'll be around
I found love new meaning to love ever since the day I met you
You're the only one who cares for me
The only one who guides me through

So your standing in your heart
So that I could see your feelings
Who knows about the day
When I get down and kneeling
With the ring in my hand
I'm about to change your world so that we can get married
Its complete that chu ma girl
I ain't that type of men who will leave you crying tears
Ill be the man that stays caring for you all throughout the years
I'll suite your heart with things so that chu could keep on smiling
I'll love you more
If you agree to we play on fighting
So just think about the future
Just loving one another
If you think about it clearly
We will always be two lovers
With the trust and respect
That every couple needs
To shine within happily
truly to succeed

I'll be the one to make you smile
Whenever your feeling down
And when your feeling lonely look to your side I'll be around
I found love
New meaning to love
Ever since the day I met you
You're the only one who cares for me
The only one who guides me through

O no...
You made me feel better.
But in exchange, You fell sick.
I'm so sorry Baby.
And you're in denial that your cough isn't bad.
OMG...

You really made me realise how painful it is to leave someone.
How can I actually give it a thought.
I can never imagine why I even entertained that thought.

Well...
No matter what happens,
I'll never let go.
No matter what the circumstance,
I'll never let you go.
This I promise you.

I miss you Baby.

As Happy As A Clam At High Waters

2009-07-25T00:14:00.002+08:00

It's so wonderful...

When I'm sick and all...

Having so much work to do...

Before damn internship starts...

Production group was a total new thing to me.

I never anticipated that it would be a good thing.

The group was supportive and caring.

I would say it's the first time I am actually 100% satisfied with the end product.

The video we presented was the reason we were all beaming with pride.

I would say we totally owned the whole class.

Or should I say for both classes.

Whoopie! Awesomest.

And Jem asked me to join 50 Frames Production.

I'm super glad.. and wanna join...

But on the other hand I have to think about what others in 50 frames might think...

Like maybe why she must join 50 frames...

Why she come into our clique and crew...

Like suddenly become part of us...

But I'm happy I found some group, although with LOTS of difference,

They still work together, complimenting each other with their talents and skills.

How wonderful... =D

and one more thing..

I have my Baby all to myself tomorrow.

Awesomest! Happiness!

No Need For Flamboyant Vocabulary

2009-07-16T01:04:00.003+08:00

I think my Baby is the best lover around. EVER.

It hurts more thinking that she thinks she can't make me happy.

Because she's my joy. My love. My life.

And it's such a cheer knowing my Baby tries her best to please me in any sense of the word.

She is my perfect girl.

(You've always been there.

At the perfect spot.)

I try my best to make my Baby happy.

To eat together all the time.

To give her flowers on no special occasions

Because everyday should be a special occasion whenever I'm with her.

Carrying her bag is just for my own selfish reason.

To show the world she's mine and we are not some pair of besties holding hands.

And to train up my arms in the mean time.

Practically everything just to see my Baby smile.

Cause when she's happy I'm happy too.

See! that's ultimately a selfish gain too.

But everyone has their priorities.

Everyone has their responsibilities.

That I have to constantly remind myself.

Of course if given the choice I know you and I would choose the same.

To just slack around in each other's arms and do nothing but love each other.

Don't be silly Baby.

Don't apologise for something that's not your fault.

Don't apologise because it hurts me to see you feel sad and blame yourself.

You make my day for every day you're with me.

You truly do. As always. And always will.

Prawns will always be there.

It isn't as if I was dying the next day and prawns would keep me alive.

Fire floss buns weren't around that day but I got to eat it today.

Hideouts should be the government's fault. Cause they didn't make enough of them.

You do everything right. You're my perfection.

You make me whole.

To blame the government more, they should have more buses for me to take.

Hahaha! It's not as if you run SBS right Baby?

Buses are way beyond our control.

Tell me which girlfriend on earth can beat my girlfriend?

She's probably the most sweet little thing,

the most (insert anything associated with the Dream) lover you could ever find around.

I'm sorry I was being hard to please.

You tried your best and I didn't appreciate you.

I always smile whenever you're with me.

Not externally all the time but in the insides as well.

Every hour, every minute and every second you're with me.

There's a smile inside.

I've never known sharing my bed would be such joy, such love and such warmth.

I've never thought of having a settled down long term relationship.

I've never understood the happiness in life that numbs all pain.

I've never comprehended the meaning of the world crumbling whenever she's not around.

I've never meant so much to another person.

... Until, You found me.

My Baby does everything right.

I need to be more appreciative.

I will treasure the times we shared.

And will share. For always.

I'm glad the plan changed.

It was always meant to be just I love you.

Never a reply I love you too.

But I'm really glad.

Change is good. (in this case)

I love you Baby.

I will never betray you.

I will never let any Dew come into our lives.

For you are the one that I want.

The one that I need.

The only one.

Let's start this new chapter of your life together.

There's no more my world.

Just our world.

Arbitrary Fulminations

2009-07-15T00:06:00.002+08:00

I smelt like chlorine the whole day.

I think it's getting into my brains.

It took a 25 year old boy some brains to create facebook.

Why can't I have some brains like that too?

Baby's going to the big U.

New chapters mean new beginnings.

New beginnings mean new endings.

The economy is still bad.

Christine resigned as the commissioner of the LPGA.

I shall take over.

I wish.

Time is running out.

I wanna make every moment I spend with you count.

We can't have everything we want.

It never ever was possible.

Oprah is stingy and doesn't give enough money to charity.

Cause as much as she gives, she has many millions more.

-Sasha Grey.

Peace out world.

Christmas is over.

I'm mentally tired.

If - Bread

2009-07-14T00:08:00.001+08:00

If a picture paints a thousand words,
Then why can't I paint you?
The words will never show the you I've come to know.
If a face could launch a thousand ships,
Then where am I to go?
There's no one home but you,
You're all that's left me too.
And when my love for life is running dry,
You come and pour yourself on me.

If a man could be two places at one time,
I'd be with you.
Tomorrow and today, beside you all the way.
If the world should stop revolving spinning slowly down to die,
I'd spend the end with you.
And when the world was through,
Then one by one the stars would all go out,
Then you and I would simply fly away

Uproarious Locutions

2009-07-12T20:52:00.002+08:00

Little Britain is HILARIOUS!!

Social Worker: Vicky, where is your baby?
Vicky Pollard: Swapped it for a Westlife CD.
Social Worker: Vicky, how could you do such a thing?
Vicky Pollard: I know. They're rubbish.

Hahahhaa!!

What kinda scriptwriter comes up with this shit!

Wonderful fella!

Narrator: When people in Britain want to buy a pet, they go to a pet shop.

If they want to buy a pet shop, they go to a pet shop shop.

If they want to buy a pet shop shop, well, they're just being silly.

Jollity Over A Cinch

2009-07-10T23:27:00.003+08:00

I'mma crossing the border with my Baby tmr!!

WHOOPIEEEEDOOWAHH! =D

hoho!

Happiness!

Anyways...

I've been a REALLY good girl today.

Even Baby said so...

hahahaha!

not that I normally ain't...

just that today I was specially good.

HOHO! MERRY CHRISTMAS TO MY PARENTS!

It was raining awfully heavy today.

But den in the evening it stopped!

Went to the gym with Mom...

did the walker thingy... for awhile.

Den did leg weights... 25kg.

Hahah! Baby said I was crazy.

ahahahha! NO I'M NOT! haahha!

It's just my normal self.

Hope can walk tmr. hahaha!

Can la can la... hahaha!

Did chest press also... 3 sets of 15 yo!

15kg... haha! not much la.

Den after all that went to play golf with Dad.

Totally sucked man.

Played like shit!

Joined some other fella to make a flight of 3...

hahaha!

I think he thought I totally cannot play kind.

HAHAHA!

but totally proved him wrong with my 5-iron shot man.

hahaha! he went like wow... ahahahah!

did about 150m...hahaha!

yeah.

den after golf went for dinner...

ate some beef soup.

awesome!

dinner and went home sat on couch and watched final episode of

the ultimatum. recorded the other day but didnt get to watch.

so lag.

yeah.

I still havent watched the MJ tribute that I happily recorded successfully.

HAHAHA!

okay world!

Merry Christmas once again!

You don't love someone because she is beautiful.

She is beautiful because you love her.

Enervated, Tuckered Out

2009-07-10T01:50:00.003+08:00

Johnny wanna be a big star
Get on stage and play the guitar
Make a little money, buy a fancy car
A big old house and a alligator
Just to match with them alligator shoes
He's a rich man so he's no longer singing the blues
He's singing songs about material things
And platinum rings and watches that go bling
But, diamonds don't blink in the dark
He a star now, but he ain't singing it from the heart
Sooner or later it's just gonna fall apart
Coz his fans can't relate to his new found art
He ain't doing what he did from the start
And that's puttin' in some feeling and thought
He decided to live his life shallow
Cash in his love for material.
And it's gone...

Gone going, gone
Everything gone give a damn
Gone be the birds when they don't want to sing
"Gone people" up awkward with their things gone.

You see yourself in the mirror and you
Feel safe coz it looks familiar
But you're afraid to open up your soul coz you
Don't really know, don't really know who is
The person that's deep within
Coz you're content with just being the name brand band
And ya fail to see that its trivial,
insignificant, you addicted to material

I've seen your kind before
You the type that thinks souls is sold in a store
Packaged up with incense sticks
With them vegetarian melts
To you, that's righteous
You're fiction like books
You need to go out to life and look
Coz what happens when they take your material
and you already sold your soul?
And it's...

Gone going, gone
Everything gone give a damn
Gone be the birds when they don't want to sing
"Gone people" up awkward with their things gone.

You say that time is money and money is time
So you got your mind on your money and your money on your mind
But what about... that crime that you did to get paid
And what about... that bit, "You can't take it to your grave"
And what about those shoes you'll wear today
They'll do no good on the bridges you burnt along the way

All that money that you got gonna be gone
That gear that you rock gonna be gone
The house up on the hill gonna be gone
The gold and purse on your grill gonna be gone
The ice on your wrist gonna be gone
That nice little Miss gonna be gone
That whip that you roll gonna be gone
And what's worst is your soul already gone
Coz it's...

Gone going, gone
Everything gone give a damn
Gone be the birds when they don't want to sing
"Gone people" up awkward with their things gone.

We watched Transformers 2 today.

Baby and her beloveds...

Hilarious jokers...

Yeah.

The transport system was rather cock up today.

First the mrt kept stopping at every station from Kembangan.

Finally reached City Hall after double the time.

Sucks.

Then came the bus from Eunos after walking Baby back.

TSK.

Waited BLOODY LONG for the bus...

and when it finally came there were 2 back to back.

IRRITATING.

okay.

Goodnight world.

Tired out this Chirstmas.

Congenial Company Makes A Whale Of A Time

2009-07-08T23:55:00.002+08:00

Merry Christmas and Happy 3rd Month BABY!!

HOHOHO.

Happiest pon school day today! =D

Early morning went over to Baby's place,

Took a bus to Outram. Uber long ride.

Collected some vichy products for Ruru...

and when we were walking to the bus stop to go to bugis...

I saw my aunt. wow.

And to think I had a super weird feeling that I would meet someone there.

How weird. Dunno if she saw or not.

But anyways I dun really care.. HAHA!

It's the 3rd month and I AM HAPPY.

Face that fact world!!!

Went Parco! hahaha!

played a fool... KLKK...

waited for Woon at Kino...

Read a book to my Baby.

"Gift of Nothing"

sweetness.

Went NTU with them...

Waited till they were done with their medical checkup.

Think almost all of the employees there were super assholes.

Except one lady at the registration counter.

The way she talked on the phone damn funny man!

HAHA!

Played Taptap the whole time while waiting on Baby's touch.

Whoopie!

Play until see stars man...

Chachambo I tell you...

Den we took the bus to Pioneer.

WahLAU!!!!!!!

There was this guy that was seated a few rows down.

SI BEH CHAO!!!

SMELLY UNTIL DIE LORH.

SUFFOCATED TO THE MAX.

I was practically breathing into my ORANGE backpack.

WTF that ass. TSK.

Den at Pioneer we took the train.

Wanted to go see the sunset at Marina Barage.

NAHBEH. NO SUN.

KNS to the max lorhhhhh...

Baskit.

So we took the train to Queenstown.

KANA SAI AGAIN.

I tell you arh...

Kids of nowadays.

PIANG EH.

DAMN SMELLY ALSO LORH.

WTF!

and so many people alight already they still stand right in front of us.

TSK. irritating pests.

RV cheeeeenahhhh fucks.

that's what Cheryl always says.

hahaha!

(of course dun have the fucks la.)

that one is I ownself input one.

hahaha!

okay. back to complaining about the smelly kids.

PIANG!!

when we shifted seats to the end...

They finally sat down.

ASSHOLES I CALL THEM.

TSK.

okay.

anyways.

We went to IKEA! at Alexandra de.

took a bus from Queenstown.

When going down got this guy kick my thigh seh.

TSK.

Accidentally arh...

BUT STILL!!!

haahha!

IKEA!

We ate din din there!

Chicken leg!! HERRING!!! WHOOOO!!! and MEATBALLS!

awesomeness!

after dinner we walked around

Baby and Woon had cones to wrap up the meal.

Den we went to Anchorpoint Cold Storage.

HAHAH! Fun to the max.

Super talk cock there lorh.

hahahha! HILARIOUS.

I was so proven right that it's christmas now lorh!!

Stockings leh!!!

They sell stockings!!

hahaahahha!!!

O YES.

Woon bought alot of NONSENSE.

hahahaha!

which includes foccacia.

hhahhaha!

and seaweed that's shredded.

supposed to be garnish she wanna eat like that.

FUNNY TT CHAR BOR....

and came another LONG bus ride.

AND ANOTHER SIBEH SMELLY FELLA...

this time it was a banglah....

TSK. Can't these people put more perfume

or carry a deodorant wherever they go?!?

TSK. irritants.

Den when we got seats at the back row...

up came these 2 Philippinas...

TSK.

the old man at the other end of the row occupied like 1.5 seats.

and the 2 ladies happily squeezed in.

I had a numb leg and half a butt left when they finally alighted.

Anyways. we alighted and walked Baby home.

and when Baby walked into her gate,

I had this sudden urge to try out the yoga pose that Woon was talking about.

So I placed the ORANGE backpack on the road.

And I tried it out there and then.

HAHAHHA!

I couldnt even stand properly lorh.

Den so hilarious.

When I tried squatting, I fell right on my ass.

HAHAHAHHA!

then a car was turning into the road.

So we picked up our stuff and left.

HAHAHA!

Woon wanted to cab home.

So she dropped me off at Eunos mrt bus stop.

HOW NICE!!!! WHOOO!

THANKS!

I didn't have to walk the rat infested place.

AHAHHA!

and No.2 came along. so cooperative.

And I was standing just beside the bus driver.

WOW.

After SOOOOOoooo long after the new bus model came out...

and taking it soooooo many times...

I finally realised it's an automatic bus!

WoW! no manual gearstick worh!!! =D

so senang lorh the uncle drive untill....

POWER KIAH!!

And I walked back at record time today.

Walked super fast.

Dunno why.

Just felt like it.

WHOOOOO!!

When I got home I was super glad cause only Mom was home.

HOW NICE! no scolding today!

Night world!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

Petrifying Anxiety

2009-07-07T11:06:00.002+08:00

I am worried.

The future is so unknown.

We're gonna be busy with our schedules.

What's gonna happen?

Nobody knows.

Would things still remain status co?

Would things improve?

Or would it spiral negatively?

No one knows.

I am worried this christmas.

Peace out world.

I know.

The world would not carry your worries.

Corespondency Missives

2009-07-07T02:40:00.000+08:00

I should have gotten used to it by now.

Everyday I should just prepare myself mentally:

Somebody is gonna vent their anger on me.

Somebody is gonna find something to scold me for.

Somebody is gonna be unsatisfied with something I have done.

That way I wouldnt feel sad or have any disapproval with myself.

Isnt it true?

Why? Why are they always unhappy with the things I do?

Sometimes I wonder if I'm really that bad a child.

But someone comes along and loves me for who I am...

Thank you Baby.

I've never felt so loved before.

I've never loved someone so much before.

I'm sorry if I've let you down in anyway.

I'm sorry if I've let you feel of certain inferiority.

You're the best and I want you to know that.

You never fail to amaze me.

Never fail to amuse me.

Never fail to make me happy even though I'm not.

Thank you Baby.

It doesnt matter even if

We all have our differences

But the one huge similarity is that

I love you and You love me too.

Thank you Baby.

I want to give you the most I can.

The most I'm capable of.

But help me along the way okay?

I'm not perfect.

But eversince I've got you I was one step closer.

Walk with me.

Take this journey of imperfection with me?

Together forever in Christmas times.

I love you Baby.

For Always.

Ardent Amorousness

2009-07-07T00:58:00.005+08:00

Damn these Hotties.

I've decided to show off the top beauties!

Whooo!

In no specific order...

Lucy Pinder

Selita Ebanks

Megan Fox

Halle Berry

Bar Refaeli

Ana Ivanovic

Aubery O'day

Alicia Keys

Paz Vega

AND OF COURSE...

Kate Voegele

Anyways... Beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder...

To me... the most beautiful is my Baby. =D

Lamentable Sorrow

2009-07-06T02:53:00.002+08:00

I have heard it said so many times, 'Love is blind'
So why are you staring?
You say that love is all we need, well
Does that apply to me?
'Cause I have found someone
That I think is beautiful
And I have fallen in love
And I'm telling you
She
Means everything to me
She
Makes me feel nothing else matters
Not even what the world thinks of me

They told me when I was a little girl, 'Love's a pearl -
You're lucky if you find it,
So share that precious beauty with the world,'
Now suddenly they say I've got to hide it
But I have found true love
And there is nothing you can do
Just try and stop me, just try and stop us
Good luck to you, 'cause
She
Means everything to me
She
Makes me feel nothing else matters
Not even what the world thinks of me
(She...she...she...)
It's simple as can be
I love her, she loves me
This is what everybody dreams of
There's nothing to be afraid of, there's nothing to be afraid of, after all it's only love
'cause
She
Means everything to me
She
Makes me feel nothing else matters
Not even what the world thinks of me

I'm down and lonely at 2.50am.

Thank goodness I don't have classes the whole day tomorrow.

Merry Christmas to those out there.

*bows*

Inadvertently Omitted Details

2009-07-05T01:25:00.000+08:00

OPPS! Forgot to blog about today!

Was awaken at 11am. as usual...

Went to Blk 201, Tamp St21...

Optician. Early morning spent $110 of Dad's money..

I LIKE!!

hahhaha!!

den had lunch at some coffeeshop...

and went home.

watched the rest of Fiddler on the Roof.

Tradition... tradition!!!

omg.

super hilarious feature.

MUST WATCH if bored to the max!

hahahha!

anyways...

Went out with Baby...

WoW!

super long saturday neh go out...

Couldnt decide what to do...

anyways..

Somehow we met at City hall..

Since I was late. (SORRY!)

and somehow ended up eating Shokudu for dinner.

YUMMY!

and... let's see...

I somehow out of the blue suddenly missed the singapore river.

DUNNO WHY.

so we walked out of city hall...

and saw the fireworks!!!

WOW!

so coincidental.

Pretty!

Sat by the river just talking nonsense...

WHICH OF COURSE INCLUDED PICNIC BASKET AND WATER!

hahahha!

PICNIC ON THE RIVER IN THE AFTERNOON!

how cool is that hello!!!!!

WHHOOOOO!!!

and I came up with this super terrific story of how it would be like if it actually happened.

HOHO!!

Genius! =D

LOVE IT!

merry christmas once again world!

peace.

Of Certain Indolence

2009-07-04T23:38:00.001+08:00

I am too lazy to blog.

Seriously. Too lazy.

I actually have lotsa to say/write.

But I'm totally indolent.

Anyways...

Since Baby blogged...

(And she's the most indolent one..)

hahaha!

So I shall blog too!

Thursday.

The loneliest day of my life.

HOHO. not really arh. hahaha!

Baby had to have lunch with her dad

So I joined Mom and Godma for lunch.

Godma bought Mom lunch as a belated birthday thingy.

We went to Chow Zhou Inn... at parkway.

The pig's stomach soup! OMG!!!! NICEST TO THE MAX!!!!

Lunch for 3 cost $95 plus.

OMG.

Kudos to Godma for lunch!

Dinner couldn't eat with Baby. =(

Cause Dad was home.

And he insisted to go to the range.

For dinner too.

SUCKS. he wanted to go to Safra one instead of Marina's.

YUCKS. dun like Safra's range.

Crowded with both people and lizards.

YUCKADIDOOOS! DISGUSTING!!

So I didn't see Baby for 1 day.

Friday.

Super IMPROMTU lunch with Baby...

After not seeing her for a day...

How can don't eat lunch together right?

WHOOOOOOooooo!

and after lunch IMPROMTU again.

Went to meet Nadia at her house there.

Collect money from her!

whoooo!

finally got paid for the SCGS enrichment I did for Razak.

HOHOHO!

happiness! MOoLAAAS!!

Anyways.

After getting the moola...

Got into the worse cab ever...

OMG. the uncle was like as if EVERYONE I MEAN EVERYONE owes him MONEY.

HATE. SERIOUSLY.

argh.

not like the lady driver... Super!

I flagged the cab when I havent even reach the pathway...

SUPER FAR AWAY FROM THE ROAD.

and I just anyhow flag...

Not expecting her to stop at all.

AND SHE DID!!

how power right!

and she was super nice!!

SPOKE WITH MANNERS!

I like! ZAINESS!

SERIOUSLY....

Anyways.

Baby dropped me off at UBI BIZLINK CENTRE

and went off to work. she was like 15 late. SORRY!

I went to work for Jazreel.

Whooo! Super fun!!

She's a food stylist...

And I was a food stylist assistant!

How cool is that!!

*and Alfie discouraged me doing his story of cooking a feast cause i needed a food stylist.

HAHA!

Anyways...

I stood the whole day,

Frying...

FISH FILLETS!

they were doing a double fillet o fish photoshoot

and the new wasabi double fillet o fish.

and shaker fries!

happiness!

I LOVE SHAKER FRIES.

but after 1 whole day we'll decide when it comes out again ya...

YAY!!

I had to put colouring on like EVERYYTHING before frying.

Super fun!

I was running a mini MacD!!

HOW COOL RIGHT!

everybody had different orders...

Like double cheese or double TarTar...

or everything double...

OMG. THIS FELLA ATE LIKE 4 FILLET OH FISHIES...

and He came out asking for more. he wanted MacFlurry.

PIANG.

WHERE TO FIND FOR HIM???!?!??!

haahha!

anyways.

SUCK MAN!

Nadia called to go out for movie after work.

BUT I SMELT SO HORRIBLE!!!

DISGUSTED WITH MYSELF LORH.

but Baby didnt seem to mind...

Hahaha! I wanted to ask her to bring an extra t for me...

but lazy.

ahaahha!

O wells...

And poor Baby was scared shit by the location of the studio.

Sorry Baby...

Scared her to tears when she was walking to the studio from the lift.

Poor girl!

Sayang kay....

and I was so horrible I laughed at her.

Hahahah! but it was quite funny arh. (SORRY.)

at least after that she was okay... with me around.

HOHO.

and we took the wrong bus.

Eh. correct bus.

Wrong direction.

So we got off at the next stop and took a cab.

HAHAH!

the cabby was funny.

well he thought I was funny.

AHHAH! cause I said Hao Di.

very funny meh?

Owells.

at least I made the old man's day.

WE WATCHED ICE AGE 3!!

HILARIOUS!!!

loves!!!

peace out world.

and merry christmas.

XOXO.

Gratitude, Respect and Admiration

2009-07-03T11:24:00.001+08:00

Loves to the late sexiest man. <3

Repetition With Supplementaries

2009-07-01T01:04:00.000+08:00

Tuesday.

'Twas a Tuesday.

'Twas a Tuesday morning.

'Twas a rather early Tuesday morning.

My bed.

My big bed.

My big comfy bed.

My big comfy bed smells wonderful.

My big comfy bed smells aromatically wonderful.

Woke up early this morning.

Went to shower and came out.

Mom wanted to take me out to lunch.

Told her I didn't wanna.

Told her I'm gonna go to school early and DO WORK.

Since Dad said I wasn't doing my schoolwork.

O WELLS.

I wanted to leave house but she insisted on sending me to school.

O yes. She came in ranting about why I wasn't close to them.

Well since they're my parents and stuff...

SO? I just kept quiet and packed my stuff...

Walked out of the room to hang my towel back in the toilet.

But she was standing at the doorway.

I mumbled happy birthday and she was like thank you and moved out of the way.

Hung my towel and she sent me to school.

Cabbed over to the airport...

Met Nadine on the way to meet my Baby...

Saw someone who i thought was her. So I called to make sure.

Waved from afar. And she was walking to a meeting. (Lunch discussion more like it)

Met Baby, O Baby! =)

Went to CAAS. Done with job.

LUNCH TIME! POPEYES BABY!

Bought all those on the TO BUY LIST

Sent Baby back to work.

Headed down to school.

Was super early. Sat there chatting with Amanda and Baby online.

Went into class at 3pm sharp.

I was the first one there.

Then came Mallory.

And then the rest. Alfie only came in at 3.22pm.

Right. It's Alfie.

Class ended officially at 5.45pm

Talked to Alfie about my FYP story...

Got a few ideas. But nothings confirmed.

Hopefully can get Francis Holgen to star in it.

*FINGERS CROSSED*

Talked till it was almost 7pm.

Walked out of classroom,

Saw Ibsen. Talked to him.

Walked to the busstop and waited for his bus with him.

Den I saw Nic. Super cute Nic Nic.

SUPER HILARIOUS I TELL U...

He gave me this mor mor ball...

hahaha! and he shared the same sentiments about MJ's death.

Apparently the t-shirt he wore today...

He sewed onto the tee something yesterday.

It was like string curtains.

He sewed 2 layers on the back of the shoulders...

and he says it's a tee shirt tribute to MJ.

O HAIL MJ... and Nic with his wonderful creation.

Hahaha!

But I told him he needed some leather or red.

Since the string curtain was black and the tee was black.

How respectful to the dead. Following customs here! =D

And I took the train with him.

He took the train cause he wanted to go to eastpoint.

To get tomatoes. HAHAH!

you know why?

hahhahahaah! BIGGER HAHAHAH!

Cause he wasn't feeling too well.

So he wanted to eat tomatoes because they contain lotsa vitamins.

And tomatoes are good for you.

HAHAHAHHAHAHHA! super funny cann....

Was on the way home...

walkin from the TANAH MERAH MRT STATION.

When my BABY called. =D

Whoopie doo wah! HAPPINESS TO THE MAX!

In the end she took the train over

and we sat on the steps at the entrance of the underpass...

Talked and talked more nonsense.

I didn't know pain could be transferred from internal to external.

O wells.

Apparently it does.

Talked and stoned till Baby was hungry.

So we walked over to Simpang's 7-11...

Tried to piggyback her along the way but STUPID bag was in the way.

And she was wearing a short black skirt.

So didn't want the WHOLE WORLD to get free show...

SO YEAH.

Another time perhaps.

Saw her up the bus. Walked back home.

Waited for mom to come back and sang bday song for her.

but she came back at 1am.

Still sang for her although the timing over le...

Cake was good!! From Rive Gauche.

And Dad was kinda pissed cause he had to wait so long.

Anyways.

yea. Story of my family. Forever pissed.

Hoho...

Never believed in Santa I guess...

Maybe that's why.

So it's 1.40am now.

Super full from cake and lotsa water.

And I have class at 9am tmr.

HOW SUCKY IS THAT MAN...

argh.

arrgh.

arrrggh.

arrrggghh.

Libretto In Stanzas Or Recognised Forms

2009-06-30T17:04:00.000+08:00

Love wandered inside,

Stronger than you,

Stronger than I.

And now that it's begun,

We cannot turn back.

We can only turn into one.

I won't ever be too far away to feel you,

And I won't hesitate at all,

Whenever you call.

And I'll always remember,

That part of you, so tender.

I'll be the one to catch your fall,

Whenever you call.

And I'm truly inspired,

Finding my soul there in your eyes.

And you have opened my heart,

And lifted me inside

By showing me yourself undisguised.

And I will breathe for you each day,

Comfort you through all the pain,

Gently kiss your fears away.

You can turn to me and cry,

Always understand that I give you all I have inside.

愛

Sometimes people put up walls.

Not to keep people out,

But to see who cares enough to knock them down.

Vigilance Against The Vigilantes

2009-06-30T00:44:00.000+08:00

I'm spiraling into my doom

I'm feeling half alice but I know one day

You and I will be free,

To live and die by our own rules,

Free...

Despite the fact that men are fools.

So you see, this world doesn't matter to me

I'll give up all I have just to breathe

The same air as you till the day that I die

I can't take my eyes off of you.

Today.

3 phone calls + smses within less than 4 hrs.

That's how many updates do you need?

Oh come on.

you say i'm a big girl now, cant control me anymore.

Fuck off. Since you cant, stop trying to.

Isn't calling and smsing non stop trying to control me?

ARGH.

Your son isn't even home on the eve of your birthday

and at 10pm you're calling me asking me to go home?

THANKS.

Yes. keep comparing.

I know.

Compare the degree against the diploma.

Compare the A grades against the Cs.

Compare the hardworking against the one working when you're asleep.

Compare the thrifty against the extravagant spender.

Compare the OH MY GOOD BOY against the rude ass piece of shit.

Compare the sensible go out and work fella against the insensible lazy bum.

Compare the asslicker against the one who doesnt give a fuck.

COMPARE. COMPARE. COMPARE.

I haven't heard you say...

O! look! she's creative against the NERD ASS BOOKWORM engineer.

O! look! she's generous against the PENNY PINCHING guy.

O! look! she's home against the fella who comes home only ONCE EVERY 3 DAYS.

O! look! she's got a mind of her own against the I HAVE TO ASK MY GF wonderful guy.

WHAT TIME YOU COMING BACK?

at least I come home. where is he?

WHY DO YOU ALWAYS HAVE TO BE SO RUDE?

have you heard yourself?

WHY MUST YOU ALWAYS SPEND MONEY UNNECESSARILY?

it may be unnecessary to you. have you thought about to me?

WHERE ARE YOU GOING?

have I ever questioned you?

WHY MUST YOU ALWAYS GO OUT SO LATE?

aren't you also always coming back after midnight?

HAVE YOU EVER LOOKED AT YOURSELF BEFORE QUESTIONING ME??

yes. you're old with lotsa experience.

TIMES HAVE CHANGED PEOPLE!

UPDATE YOURSELF PLEASE.

antiques.

get a life out there!

see the world NOW.

o yes. you don't believe in the WORLD.

ha!

I AM WHO YOU'VE MADE ME BECOME.

o right. I forgot.

you don't know me...

Wells, don't bother cause you never will.

Scoldings In A Vehement Fashion

2009-06-28T22:31:00.000+08:00

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

Why?

I know it's wrong. but it feels so right.

I feel like a hypocrite. I can't call myself a christian anymore.

I can't bring myself to do it.

But on the other hand, I love my Baby so.

I never felt this guilty before.

But somehow I've come to a point where I somewhat don't care anymore.

All I know is that I will die without my Baby.

It's not as if I am an animal that follows its instinct.

I have feelings too. I have my own thoughts too.

Isn't it why we were given free will?

Why let us choose when there is only ONE choice to be made?

I lay in bed last night trying to imagine what it'd be like if ever my Baby left me.

I couldn't do it.

I think I'd seriously die.

Go contract some stupid flu shit or die of some mysterious cardiac arrest.

No shit man. I'll seriously die.

I don't know why this whole thing is affecting me so much.

But I cant help but think of it.

It hurts. But at least it's a minimal part of me.

The other parts, HELL YEAH BABY!!

Argh damn. Why did Michael have to go?

I miss you you sexy Jackson!

Aw!

Dad was just saying if he were to come to Singapore again

we'll go see him.

DAMN.

I was sooo hoping.

yes. Hope more.

He's dead now.

Love you my sexy 50 year old man.

Silent Night, Unholy Night

2009-06-25T04:04:00.000+08:00

Argh. It's 4am and I'm still awake.

I'm super awake. I'm still super awake.

HELP!

I was playing FB games just now.

And a stupid mozzie had to show itself.

It flew into the light from the lappy and landed on my hand.

How to let it go?

So I turned on the lights and finally smashed it.

I miss my Baby.

Argh. =(

okay. Anyways, I'm super liking Ah Mei's 解脫

dunno why also. Keep repeating it on youtube.

Sigh.

I think I should try and sleep.

It's 8 mins to 5am. GOSH.

ARGH. DAMN YO.

2009-06-24T17:25:00.003+08:00

argh man... i sooo wanna kick myself.

why? damn it.

I CANT SEE MY BABY TODAY!

why didnt i wake up earlier today and head down and have lunch with Baby today.

ARGH.

Mom just told me a while ago that we're having dinner with Grandma.

it's her birthday today.

I wanna have dinner with Mama... but my baby!

I wanna see my baby too...

Argh. bad timing.

SORRY BABY.

poor thing... ok..

at least there's lxr. thanks man.

Holey Smokerooos

2009-06-24T04:38:00.000+08:00

WoW! I finally started my own blog!

How awesome right?

Now my baby would have one extra blog to read to entertain her at work.

=D whoopiedoowah!

“I never know what the future brings

But I know you’re here with me now.

We’ll make it through and I hope

You are the one I share my life with.”

It’s the holidays now.. like finally after such a LONG while…

O wells. it’s only 2 weeks though. and 1 hath already passed.

DAMNED.

Well, I sure spent the first 2 days of the last week of the hols well enough!

Monday! I went to school damn bloody early in the morning… argh.

But my sweet baby called me to wake me in the early morn.=)

hahah! although I just practically went back to sleep after she hung up.

I eventually got up though and got ready, left for school.

FINALLY the Hereafter could be used and the server was running.

stupid fire… wahlau. SWAY ASS… well that’s another story.

ANYWAYS. I super after a long way EVENTUALLY finished my whole project 3.

OH THANK GOD!

although the crits weren’t really tt great… =( at least I tried.

I got complimented on the storyline though… =) kudos to that…

and alfie had to come in with his arms akimbo and said bitchyly,”abit draggy hor…”

haha! and he laughed evilly shortly after. argh.

O wells, at least Siew Cheng was like super encouraging all the way. LOVES!

super to the max wonderful and supportive that lady. =D

after watching everyone’s we headed down to the canteen…

ate MUSLIM RICE! super to the maxxxxxxxx… BESTEST FOOD!

saw yuan ming playing sudoku.. den my brain itchy.. so went to help her.

unknowingly that andrea lim was having a challenge with her… haha!

anyways… ym gave up and handed me the whole thing. and obviously i completed it.

I did one on my own after that… and Mallory brain itchy also.

Apparently she has never completed one on her own. AH WELLS.

So I helped her… and after we successfully completed 3 puzzles,

Andrea was still on the one she was doing when she challenged Yuan. WTH.

and she was rather proud of it. HAHA! hilarious!

and den I WAS LATE. argh. DAMN SUDOKU ALWAYS EAT MY TIME.

Sorry BABY!

WE WENT TO WATCH ghost of girlfriend’s past.

super nonsense storyline… but okay la…

for the sake of Matthew McConaughey and of course the hottie.. JENNIFER GARNER!!

hahaha! although in all the movies her face like always the same… SHE’S STILL DAMN HOT!

haha! after the movie… HELL LONG BUS RIDE!

the bus uncle was HILARIOUS!

he was PUZZLED… why we taking his bus when his route to Eunos is the longest.

HAHA! but anyways…

I was happy that it’s times like that I can actually spend precious time with my baby.

I was like to the max on high cause I was blabbering gibberish. hahah!

Hilarious. Myself. ARGH. (shakes head)

Baby was like laughing to the max max until she couldn’t walk properly.

HOHOHO! (merry christmas!)

I love it when Baby laughs so heartily.. =D

simple happiness.

“Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me.”

TUESDAY! Was supposed to wake up in the morning to go gym and work everything off…

but obviously… TOO LAZY LA! (tsk tsk tsk…)

Think Mom was quite disappointed. But she gave up even attempting waking me up.

SORRY!

well.. Baby called me in the morn.. haha! and OBVIOUSLY AGAIN… I went right back to sleep.

[O SLEEP... GLORIOUS SLEEP... IT'S THE BEST ACTIVITY WHEN YOU'RE ALONE. =D]

Favouritedous hobby.

Woke up at 11.28am… WOW! hahaha!

Showered and left house. MET BABY FOR LUNCH!

=D bestest. drank TEH-PENG. and the bloody milk.

ARGH. LEAVE ME ALONE! LEAVE MY STOMACH NORMAL!

whole day my stomach felt weird. STUPID MILK. (sorry Baby)

Anyways.. after lunch went to Eunos platform…

I WAS EARLY!

Met Pearly and Rachel. Kiddos.

hahah! Bloody Hell. Was bad enough I had to wait since I was EARLY.

I reached at 1pm. They arrived at 1.25pm. whooo! power kias!

Stood at the damn platform. Deciding what to do with our afternoon.

HOHO. called NadiaKangSuLing… WOW!

She was HOME! hohohohohoho! so decided to meet her at TAMPINES (again)

after like a super long discussion where to meet. argh.

we walked around… den went to STARBUCKS!

drank up and finally Nadia reached and we went to Cartel and watched her eat.

den went to the ARCADE lorh horrr…. Nadia apparently associates KIDS to the arcade.

WHAT!?!?

argh. We stood and watched Dan play the chinese drums thingy… HILARIOUS!

hahaha!

den after Dan and Nadia left we continued walking around AIMLESSLY.

yes. AIMLESSLY.

o… I saw an Ashworth Polo that was quite nice. tried it on but it was too big.

Ashworth has super weird sizing. the men’s extra small is TOO BIG.

the women’s extra large is fitting. and the women’s collection is sooooooo limited!

argh. pek chek.

So couldn’t buy.

Save money la.

Den we walked until it was 6pm and we left for the airport!

Met everyone at BK. and we walked over to the clubhouse.

whooo!

super large group. had to go down a few times to bring everyone to the location.

ordered food into the K room and we started singing!

came in only dunno who put the SHAN HU HAI there..

den dun wanna sing. so when Nadine and I walked in…

Nadine sang the char bor part. and obviously I sang the male part…

Everyone like super on high. HO! (wait till we bring in the booze man!)

AMANDA SINGS SUPER CUTELY!!!

Every song we sang was practically an anthem. Everyone shouted/sang aloud!

And we ended with super HIGH song! “Dancing Queen”,”THANK YOU FOR THE MUSIC”

everyone stood up and DANCED!

haha! super cha cham bo and ah go go lorh!

HILARIOUS!

waiting for the video from Nadia. UBER!

after K nobody felt like leaving. but the damn place was waiting for us to leave to close up.

So we went for supper! YA KUN people!!!

super… took LOTSA photos… all nonsense de la!

haha!

“HAO LONG IS A CHINA MAN.”/”HOW LONG IS A CHINA MAN.” (thanks Melody)

yeah. and after, we left cause it was getting late and the kiddos had to catch the last train.

Thanks to ScubaNut who sent me back!

Let’s see what Wednesday brings! tata!

Love you Baby!